Adventures Of Life!

So last night I was asked to go out to dinner with a few friends. They asked me while I was at the store what time that it would be convenient for me and I told them 6:00 p.m. . So I run home after I shut down the store and take care of my dogs and go to the local eatery. Get my truck parked go in there's a huge wedding going on and I'm seated asked me how many people were coming I said I don't know there's probably going to be four of us all together. And sat and waited! And waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited...... So you catch my drift! Half hour goes by then it's 45 minutes.... By this time I am really I'm not happy camper. I don't hardly ever go out for supper so for me to say yes to this it takes a lot for me to do that cuz I am by myself. No significant other to go with me. Anyway I was really angry. Because I had said specifically they asked me 6:00 and here they don't show up. So I walked out the door and as ...

So here we are July 26th 2024 and I thought I would touch base with y'all! I know I'm not on here as much as I probably should be but this is more of a journal, raw journal of my journey through grief.  So I usually talk through my blog so hopefully it makes sense again it's raw, possibly unedited in places!  So I'm at the point now where we are 9 months into this loss. And I can't believe I've made it through this part of it I mean when you first lose your loved one you're not sure if you're going to make it till the next day or even the next hour or the next minute. It's very surreal like an out-of-body experience almost. You're so numb and so devastated by your grief that you don't know if you're going to make it through it all. Reminds me of the scene in steel magnolias where oh I just had her name in my head where the mother I can't remember her name, the mother was crying one minute then she composed herself and then she is cryi...

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Good day all, I decided to come back to blogger to maybe use this platform as my place of journaling I know it's been couple years since I've been here but I just need a space where I can express my feelings and my story. And I know I've been able to do that before here so I decided I'm coming back.  Some of you may know some of you may not know, but in October of 2023 my husband Tom passed away!  He had a brain bleed that caused irreversible damage and tragically he passed away. That whole process of going through that was just the most painful next to the death of my children in 1997. I was told by the doctor that his cognitive and his communication was affected to the point that he probably would never be able to come back from it. So decisions that I had to make based on knowing what my husband would want was extremely painful. Meaning I had to shut the machine off! I believe he died the night before because his blood pressure and everything was in the toilet like 4...